dudes so i'm like going to teh doctors next week

cos my parents are like worried i think that ive stopped eating properly

iget hungry i just dont eat really

and like they think my 'mood swings' are cos of that but its more the other way round, i dont feel like eating because i feel depressed

and like yeah anwway

ccos im going with my mum or dad im not gonna be able to be like 'doctor i think im suffering from depression/bipolar' (which is what i think btw)

and yeah so i dunno what to do

cos i want help and to get life back a bit better

but i dunno

dont even know if this is somethinog serious or just teenage mood swings

which is what my parents keep passing it off as

and like yeah i overheard my sister and a few friends of hers (well it wasnt overhearing i was in the room not like eavesdropping i was sitting with them) and they were talking about how lame or something people who go to school counsellors are or something

and it made me feel like

[ok that smiley doesnt describe it but yeah]

so what do i do, should i just describe what im getting like and see if the doctor is like matches that up to something and gives me something to help treat it

but then what if he doesnt and i stay like this

help ideas please thanks

Well you know what you need to do, you just haven't seem to have worked up the courage yet.

You need to tell both the doctor and your parents the truth. The full truth.

If you do get any medication you should ensure that it's tailored to your specific case, and not what the doctor thinks to be your case. So the doc needs to know eeeeeeverything, and your family do too so they can be there for you.

Never dismiss your own feelings, it is irrelevent whether or not it's teenage mood swings or a serious problem, because either way you're suffering.

Take this opportunity to do what needs to be done, don't wuss out or go quiet, say what needs to be said until it's all said and then you can go quiet again.

Good luck! :]

I say that you ask your parents about talking to the doctor in private for a bit and then let them come in after you've talked to the doctor so they can have their input, too. You're at the age where it's perfectly appropriate to want independence in such things.

Also, don't listen to what other people say about it being lame to go the counselor. Those are ignorant statements, but they can also be kind of defensive statements from people who have their own problems but are too worried about the social stigma to do anything to actually help themselves.  In other words, the same people who said those things have probably considered going to the counselor themselves and then decided against it for some reason but say negative things about it so that no one can see through them. The only time it's lame to go to the counselor is if you really don't need it and aren't serious OR if the counselor is actually lame, like happened to me when I tried to go to one when I was in high school. The guy was a nutjob and needed way more help than I did so I never went back.

The biggest thing is just take care of yourself. Try to take anything that anyone else says with a grain of salt and do what is best for you. In the end, it's your life; be in control.

We used to do that to get out of class 

laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame

anonnnnnnnnnnnnnnz i think if you don't feel comphortable telling your parents then that's your choice. your culture is different than mine and i don't know how your parents will react. even if they love you sometimes people are brought up to believe seeking help for anything other than health issues is shameful, which is a messed up point of view.

i suggest asking to talk to the doctor in private just like nyx said, and obviously your parents are trying to do what's best for you and help you by taking you to the doctor but you also have to speak up so you can get better.

i believe you are a strong person and can get through this. just have faith in yourself and gooooooooooood luck with the appointment. keep us posted about what happens. x

 yeah i dunno how they'll react either which is why i'm scared of telling them

but it's irrational i guess 'cos they do want to help me 'cos they are my paernts =$

and lol they'd probably freak out a bit if i asked to speak to the doctor in private

argh i dunno :| we'll just see what happens..

'..i've given you a blood test on thursday just to rule out anything physical, i agree with you i think it's emotional'

'..depression can be because of an inbalance of the chemicals in your head, or outside factors, but you haven't told me about any such outside factors..'

'..the mind is split into the conscious and subconscious, and we have a horrible way of forcing bad things into the subconscious which then come back at us which we don't realise..' or something like that..

after my blood test i'm going to go see him again when i get back, i'm going away on friday for a few weeks..

Oh hai d00d I heard about this awesome site called Help.com you should check it out i bet they can really help you man, they're like experts.

Srsly though good luck, I dunno wut it's like there but here doctors just tend to throw drugs at shiz like depression.

Sending positive vibes mentally to youz.

... if the drugs work i'll catch them and take them.

thanks for the vibes. :)

update

last monday (28/9) i saw the Child and Adolescent Mental Health Service, then went in again on thursday for a 'full assessment' which was just a few more questions

both parents came with both times, but went out of the room after a bit

gonna get some therapy, 'Cognitive Behavioural Therapy', anyone heard of it?

if that doesn't work imma get some meds.

meds usually work if it's clinical, just a problem in the brain, without a reason, but my depression isn't totally constant, so chances are there is a reason...

...but i might still get meds if CBT doesn't work much

I started with the equivelant of Child and Adolescent Mental Health Service but then I went to adult services and they just pumped me full of drugs.

Another thing if there's things you don't want your parents to know now or everrr, you don't have to tell them. If it helps you get better by keeping things from you, do it.

Alot of what I went through I couldn't even begin to explain to my parents.

I so don't make sense..

But yeah.. My point..

If sharing this with your parents helps you, by all means share it.

If you'd feel better with your parents not knowing, don't share it with them.

But everyone needs some help, no one got through life without someone to lean on.

Your parents will most likely understand if you don't want them to know everything, if they know it's helping you.

On that note.. Rawr?

Thank you Trampy :)

I am telling my parents the bare minimum at the moment but when I suddenly snap and get really aggressive at them or like stop talking and just sit in my room for three hours or something they notice... But they're treating me exactly the same which is good.

Seeing the doctor-psycho people again on Monday. It's getting better what with school and distractions but it's still there so I still want help, and I know that if I don't now.. and like it will just come back over Xmas hols like it did for a few days over half term,

Those few days were really, really hard and I don't want that again.

Rawwwr.

guyyyss i'm sort of ignoring what she said to do over christmas which was more thought records daily of like shizz and also plan activities to do in order to keep occupied and distracted

basically all that seems to be happening is she keeps trying to get me distracted from shit instead of fixing it but i dunno if that's how it's menna get fixed, she's the professional

/rant